Temp Home.

I really like my new place. I am still in the process of unpacking [procrastination]. There is still so much that I have to get. Lights, hooks, hangers, garbage can, food. Not to mention internet access at home.. Not work. The list grows with everyday. I just got paid and I am willing to bet that most of my paycheck will go towards this list. No bueno.

P.S. I realized how amazing my friends truely are. I am so very grateful for them. They don't judge me for anything. They let me talk through my problems and help me in so many ways. I love them and always will. You guys are the best.

please please listen to over and over.

I love love love this song. Sometimes I want to cry because of it. But that is not a bad thing.

Packing.

What a pain. I am trying to keep things organized but I keep forgetting to put things in the boxes they belong. I just want to be done!

Help me to remember.

I cannot think of the name of these flowers to save my life.

They are beautiful.

It's Time!

I have successfully located a place to move into.
We have paid the deposit and are waiting to sign the lease!
I am very excited for this and have been for some time. :]
Here's to being responsible and moving on with my life.

I Can Feel It Now.

Christmas snuck up on me this year and waited to the last minute to scare me into the Holiday Spirit. But I am starting to feel it now, with two days to spare. I have been listening to the Songs for Christmas by Sufjan and I am getting more excited with every song. I know I shouldn't say, but secretly.. I am a bit excited to see what I will be getting. I have yet to get presents for people. Or make, because that is all I can afford to do. Hmm.. I don't know what to do. I hope I will make it in time.
Happy Christmas Friends.

Slow Down.

Wow. It seems like so much has happened in less than a week. I really have no time to catch my breath. I am just a bit overwhelmed. There is so much to do in very little time and here I am blogging while my list continues to grow..

I Want.

I need slash want more Polaroid film. BUT I refuse to pay twenty five dollars for ten pictures. I could buy some online, but I am too lazy to do that. Plus.. I have no job, therefore, not much money to spend freely.

I think that JoJo and I will go to a movie today. :] Even though there is little money for me to spend. We [I think mostly myself] want to go see Fantastic Mr. Fox. Today is the perfect day for a movie.

Santa

Dear Santa,
I would really like these things for Christmas.



Thanks.

Little Miss

I love the movie.I love the music. I just watched it. I teared up. Only a little bit though. Please watch this if you have the chance. :]

PinkFloyd.

This song gives me chills every time. The vocals in this are unreal to me. I wish with all my heart I could sing or perform nearly as well as this [or any artist for that matter].

This is just one of my favorites. All of them are so good.

Tell me you don't feel good when you listen to this..

AustralianPinkFloyd.

Jordan is a huge fan of Pink Floyd. Therefore we would listen to them together. I have listened to the previously, but lately I have come to enjoy them even more. During the summer, I decided to surprise Jordan with tickets to Australian Pink Floyd. [I know, probably the best girlfriend in the world.] It was really really good. Probably one of my favorites. The music was.. Magic.

I Thought Wrong.

I thought I was finally getting use to things. But things are still changing. I, for one, am no good with change. I am having a difficult time adjusting to the ways of this new life. But I am.. Trying.

Well, I lost my job last week and have been looking for a new one. I don't know where to look. My plans, if successful, is to move up to SLC and find a job there. But my problem is, first, I don't have a job. I need a job to get money to move[obviously]. Second, I don't want to get a job and have to quit as soon as I am ready to move [which I hope would be sooner than later]. Third.. I still have lots of things to take care of here in the valley. I am just antsy and I want to get this show on the road.

The Weekend.

This weekend, again, was not the best.
I now find myself with more free time
than I would like. It's not completely
a bad thing.. But not good either.
I can't really afford all of the free
time that has just been given to me.

Can I tell you a secret?

I worry constantly that boy will
stop liking me one of these days..
That boy will fall in love with someone
cooler, prettier, more understanding than I.
It makes me so sad and scared. It breaks
my heart to think about but I can't
but think that. Boy is great. He is cute.
It wouldn't be hard for him..
Everyone likes him.

I just worry..

Venting..

Like always, I vent in my blog posts. I think it
helps me to see my thoughts in writing.
Today, I feel.. Off. I can't explain exactly why.
I am doubting things that I thought to be so
secure and sure in my life. This new routine of
my mine is throwing me off. Some normalcy and
consistency would be really good. I would just like to
have things return to the way they were back then.
The good times that seem so far away, but at the
same time, seem as if they were just yesterday.

ps. thanks for the nice comments from the Anonymous writer[s].
It is nice knowing that some one reads my ranting and rambling.

pps. did you know that pps is the [suppose] to be the correct
way rather than pss? It's post post script instead of post script script..

ppps. jordan comes home tuesday. :]